A Few Months Have Passed

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It's been a few months since I got blocked by :icondreams-hold-ambition:, :iconsonicdash57:, and :iconinfinite-hope64:. I don't know what would they think of me. I thought of them as good friends just before The 2nd Silence and a few years ago. I'm not sure how I can hear from them. But if you guys (including the three) think that I'm a monster, I'll accept it as granted. I will allow that all of you will call me a monster, an idiot, a fool, a dumbass, a jerkass, and, well, a bastard, cuz I'm too overobsessed with RPs.

Dashiell, you've been a good friend just before The Second Silence. The way you and I RPed made me happy all the time. The RPs you and I did have been a remarkable and wonderful thing. I loved to RP, but my overobsession for RPs is what caused my fall. I find Hearts in Harmony nice, the characters good, and the appearances of your Inhumanities made me think they're cute. The way you RPed as the Date A Live characters is magnificent, cuz you made Tohka and Origami friends.

Ryan, I don't know what to say but you've been a good friend too. I'm sorry that you've lost your Mother, but you have my condolences. The loss of your mother (and the loss of Dashiell's great-grandmother) struck me in the heart. It hurts when you cry. Both deaths reminds me of my grandmother, who died on March 3, 2014 from chromatic leukemia. I'm sorry, comrade.

Devon, you are also a good friend of mine (again just before The Second Silence). You've talked to me last year when you heard that Dashiell blocked me. I thanked you for convincing her to unblock me (but on a few conditions) last year ago. The RPs you and I do were good, similar to the RPs Dashiell and I did. I have to say sorry for I have been too obsessed with RPs. I brushed off your note knowing that we're no longer friends. But I still find ya as a comrade.

We all know that you and the two are no longer my friends and that I blocked Morgan Looney but..... only then have I realized the mistakes I made before the Fall and the 2nd Silence, and the feelings I had. Do y'all wanna know the feelings I had? Despair, guilt, horror, loneliness, regret, remorse, shame, shock, and suffering. Those are the feelings and emotions I had. I had brought shame upon myself after I realized that I have the sins I made by demanding for RPs. For being obsessed with RPs. And, finally, forcing you guys into doing RPs with me.

But.....with this I am becoming a monster upon realizing that. I cannot believe that. I must ask you guys something: I want to be forgiven by you, Dashiell, and your friends. If you and your friends don't like to forgive me for the errors of my ways, I'll accept that I'm already beyond redemption and forgiveness. I'll let you all hate me for the errors I have made. I'm all alone now, with :iconazure-dragon-seiryu: and :iconthekillershaymim: for company. If I had not hear from you guys, I will still accept that.

I'm sorry, my dearest friends.
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Azure-Dragon-Seiryu's avatar
Yeah seems that you're obessed with RPs, so yeah